About the Book: A coming‐of‐age novel about 15‑year‑old Nicholas living with his father in the Chicago suburbs after his parents’ divorce. He begins suffering panic attacks, strange sensations (“maybe the Greek god Pan is inside me”), friends forming cultish rituals, exploring rock, literature, drugs, and the disintegration of his usual world. It blends surrealism, adolescence, psychological intensity and mythic undertones.
